confused with my heart

lately I met someone in the middle of my almost destroyed realationship with my man :p ( ceilah my man ), and I enjoyed my time with him coz I'm sick of bored with my relationship with my boyfriend even in the other way we have to finished it and it's end now, but I keep go out with this new man I enjoyed going out with him but so much thing from him that I hated the most from the man, he's too much talking that's showing the foolish he is, he showing so much that he really like me and that's makes this not fun anymore for me even I little bit melted with him but I don't know I can't imagine my future with him, from the way he talk it showing that he don't have good future or not focus with his future he have too much plan for his future and that's makes me tired hear it
but from now on I just want to let it flow and look if it's working between us or not at all,I'm still using my logic to think about it, thanks GOD I have a great Logic to think about it and otherwise I'm still young and I'm really affraid with commitmentso try to not think so much and just enjoyed my last time here
love it stockholm so much

happy,sad all together

gita dan tika dgn teman2 baru wakakakakak

weekend kemaren gw ke belgi ketemu gita,dan annoeska sekeluarga hehehehe sumpah exciting banget gw mo keluar negeri lg trus sesampainya di airport brussel sumpah tuh airport gede bgt apa karena gw dr arlanda yah which is airportnya kecil skali mpe pegel gw nyari jalan keluar dr airport brussel jauh bener trus gw di jemput patrick supir taxinya si annoeska sesampainya di rumah annoeska buset rumahnya gede bgt euy bener2 kaya rumah org kaya pake kode2 gt di pagernya ud gt dr pager gerbang ke rumah jg lumayan jauh gt d ud gt yg pertama nyambut gw si jack anjingnya annoeska gt trus baru d ketemu gita trus kenalan sama annoeska dan junior trus di kenalin ke boy ud gt ke kamarnya gita siap2 soalny mo dinner di luar gt d

ud gt di kenalin sama jac suaminya annoeska sama anaknya si jac namanya roy yg katanya gita ganteng tp menurut gw biasa aja sih hehehe trus y ud abis dinner kita pulang trus ngobrol2 bentar ud d ma'gita di kamarnya aja

hari sabtunya gw ikut kegiatan gita di rumah itu dan lain2 lah mana malemnya annoeska sama Jac mo ke pesta gt y ud kita jd dinner cm sama anak2nya aja gt d ud gt jam 1/2 12 mlm annoeska pulang kita siap2 pergi ke antwerpen gw penasaran makan frittur yg katanya makanan yg paling famous di belgi ud gt kita ke club yg pertama ga gt asik clubnya lagunya enak cm gw ga suka crowdNya trus akhirnya pindah club gt which is clubnya belanda bgt d ud gt djnya jg ganteng euy hehehe trus kan clubnya tingkat pas naik ke atas ya ampun bartender di atas tampan skali ud gt kenalan sama beberpa bule lah mpe jam 4 lewat kita pulang jalan ke terminal antwerp gt tp nunggu bus lama ya udah lah kita jalan kaki eh ketemu tmn baru lg jalan bareng ud gt lumayan jauh d kita jalan mpe akhirny dpt tebengan euydi anter sampe rumah d ud gt mana dr gerbang annoes ke rumah tuh mesti lari soalny ad sensor tp cm 2 menit jd capek bener euy mana jalannya banyak batunya

ud gt nyampe jam 7 gt d ud gt mana ga bs bobo lg yah cm bobo 2-3 jam gt d trus si boy masuk eh junior ikutan ud gt siang2 gw sama gita pergi ke tmptnya mbah diah tmnnya gita disini ud gt pulang jam 3 ngobrol2 sama annoeska ud gt pulang d gw di jemput si patrick lg abis itu pas di airport dompet gw ilang :(( huwaaa sedih bgt ud gt sesampainy di arlanda secara gw masih lemes ya gw cari tmn buat ngobrol ntah mengapa malem itu ga ad yg bs di ajak ngobrol bete euy mana ad tmn yg katanya sayang sama gw di saat gw lg down itu dia malah ninggalin gw cm karena hal yg ga penting which is sampe skg gw ga negor2 dia lg, lah gengsi gw kan tinggi dan lagian dia jg ga ad inisiatif apapun untuk deketin gw, emg bener kata org lo baru tau tmn yg sesungguhnya ketika lo lagi susah bukan pas lagi seneng trus ud d pulang